Release perfection

Go……. Release

Release, let everything go and impart it to the one who loves you best. Who is unseen, but yields to you more than any bird or flower that grows from the earth. Who sees you more beautiful than the sun setting across any sea. Or the sun rising over a desert dune or any exotic landscape. Because he regards these things in you, he’d like for his love to shine through you. Yes! Broken and rejected you.

As well as the one that’s not commercially beautiful. He wants his grace to shine through you like a diamond in the coal. Because, you’re just that precious to him. And you whose skin isn’t  perfect or too dark, He wants his blessings to shine from within you like the sun does through a cleft of the darkest alcove. Yes! He found you and became awe_struck from your beauty.

Also to you, who thinks every negative thing about yourself, due to  you weren’t made like everyone else. Which, leaves you to have to modify thing in  your everyday life. I am jealous of you, because his true ability shines through you. Like a priceless crown above his head.

Likewise, those who have lost. Because of tragedies. Nonetheless, they never give up on putting their lives and hometowns back on track. He, gives them the gift of resurrection and healing. Like, Jesus Christ, whose sits beside Him.

Stop……

Its FMF party ya’ll at Lisa Jo Baker’s Five Minute Friday Please come and join us on this fun and encouraging write~ Leah

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I can do

When I’m having a difficult day:
1: I need to  reminded myself that God in Jesus Christ loves me.
2: Listen to some uplifting and upbeat music.
3: Try to make everyone laugh around me, and then I can feel the joy
4: Try to accomplish a goal small or great
5: talk to a good friend and laugh until my belly aches.
6: Go for a walk
7: Scream into my pillow, until my anger has dissipated
8: Try some yoga
9: if I can, do something nice for somebody, even a stranger
10: write about my day and then read it as the reader, but not as the storyteller. I do this as a method to step outside of myself to judge my day with rationality, and not my emotions
11: Clean the house, including everyone’s room. Unless I’m upset with them.
12: Have a really good cry
13: Crochet
14: Watch a really good movie with friends, family or alone
15: Pop some popcorn with extra butter and add chocolate m&ms
16: Walk someone’s dog
17: Give everyone around me a compliment and mean every word of it.
18: Go out for dinner with friends and other desserts only. Yeah, plural dessert 🙂
19: try to recollect a few good things of the day (laughter, smiles, thank yous, sun, rain on a dry day, 10 toes, etc.
20: And of course I do this because it’s possible as I’m praising & praying to Jehovah in the name of Jesus Christ.
21:) well, I contradict myself; I might have been complaining to The Lord about life, rather than praying

Entirely because, that whatever drama that’s playing in my mind or what the devil wants me to believe is true, I know the Heavenly Father got me. Yay, Jesus!

~ Leah

it could be worse

You might  remember from an earlier post, last week at: Imperfectly_His, where I wrote briefly about being let go from a career opportunity, that would have led to larger projects. The post below is something I composed at the beginning of the week. When I had to face the fact I was discharged for my technical performance.

Sometimes I wish it would have been because I’m strong and opinionated. My race, my religion, or anything other than the above statement. Because those are common areas that I contend with in life. But, not for  something I imagined I was nicely skilled at. I said “nicely” because now I know, I need more experience.

Even so, I still hear in my head over and over them telling me, ” you’re not good enough” or ” You did your best, but, it wasn’t good enough.”

With that piece of history, please read the first installment of ‘It could be worse’ As I present you all with my tender feelings as I look for work. While I Humble myself and ask my part-time employers for more hours.

As well, I’m dealing with having another year (thankfully) of paying rent and utilities to my family. After experiencing a vivid but a fleeting moment of believing I was on the road to true independence.

Because that new job would have been our celebration of me being able to maintain a healthy lifestyle, for the past few years. Oh, Yeah! I’ m handling this set back on pure faith and no substances. Correction pure faith and lots of chocolate daily and carbs now and then.

 

 

                                                                 “ It could be worse “

Part I

The  quote ” It could be worse” is always the quote that one hears, either from a kind stranger or someone who knows your true circumstances.

Yes, the quote is true. But it doesn’t or shouldn’t devalue my pain. As long as I make solid efforts to improve. Then in that case I do have the right to feel the way I feel.  But to compare my problems to someone else’s or  to compare them to  problems of the world, than of course “It Could Be A lot Worse” Period!

Hence:
I would like to say as a independent and creative minded women, that’s it’s fine I don’t have it all together. It’s alright to experience the pain of disappointment, of a missed opportunity. Also, if I fail at something, it’s normal to have a bit of a slump.

Furthermore, it’s alright if I own up to my feelings and let the anguish and doubts, flow freely as tears from my eyes. To go even deeper, does owning up to my emotions make me appear weak? No! It will eventually make me stronger. Why? Because to admit defeat means I’ve accepted the truth.

However, as I stand in the center of a corridor, where one end is brilliant, obscure  with  new opportunities,  yet to open! Nevertheless, on the other end is a familiar place. It holds me where I stand. With its auditory sensation of emptiness. Every bit I still sense the vibration of the last door shutting behind me; On the path to a better career.

Because that closure is tender, still within me, I would like a moment to vent. I want to accuse everyone for my faults and actions. I would like to share that, being a Christian doesn’t exempt me from being a mortal being, overloaded with emotions. That I can’t always contain. As well, I’d like to share I may not immediately hear Jehovah’s words through Jesus Christ. ( Though I want to!) every time. Referable to the fact I may not like his instructive answer.

Because, my misfortune in the form of a  lost vocation. Which brings familiar emotions of feeling rejected, hopeless and stagnant. So, I’d like to invite you to join me for a couple of raw posts on how I am dealing with losing a recent business venture.

Which I’ am now, experiencing the effects of it. Hence I will be writing about how am dealing with it. While I battle with my confidence, and faith.

Until the following post, I Pray God in Jesus Christ can bless us all with a peace of mind, even if it’s just for a bit. Amen ~ Leah

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Your Name Here

If you need a spiritual pick me before a new week starts. please read this post!!!! Because, you are never alone~ Leah

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20140604-112102-40862873.jpg Psalm 94: 18,19 : When I said

” My foot is slipping,”

your unfailing love, Lord, supported me.

When anxiety was great with in me,

your consolation brought me joy 

Amen!

When I’m done with a difficult  day  at work, I really let  it break me down. It’s when I, allow my insecurities to continue to pull me in the wrong direction. Almost to the point of not feeling like I belong. Or useless.

As my spiralling self defeating thoughts continue. Such as:  I’m, I really a good person? Do I deserve any blessing , that God has instore for me? Why hasn’t  he, blessed me lately? Or I’ am , too stupid and self pitified to see my blessings.

(Yes! I said Self Pitified. Because, I mortified myself into that pity.)

All those question and more run through my head as I lay down in bed and try to…

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Prayer Hands

Hands: Five Minutes write prompt word

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Holding  and pointing to scold me. Your hands have cause me pain with a stinging sensation across my face. . As my own hands touch my face to soothe the pain and the marks , I’m sure you’ve left. Along with you walking out the door, without a sorry or care

I stand in tears. Yet, I vow to myself,  as God is my witness, you’ve  hurt me for the last time. I will take only what I came with. I Will also leave with good faith , that seems to blind me to knowledge, that God will see me through in Jesus’s name.

It’s all I have to help me get through, as I calm our only child and pack her favorite toy, blanket and some clothes. I  have to put all our things in one roll away suitcase. Due to the fact, we’ll take public transportation to a shelter that, in Christ’s name will help us , keep us anonymous and away from you.

And my panicked heart,  is least worried about the heavenly Father ‘s job. But, worried  on how soon you’ll  return. Which has been a never ending feeling through out the last few years of what was once a beautiful marriage.  

It changed,because of your  mood swing. Which,changes like your job at the stock market .

Funny putting blind hope on stocks and money can gave me a comfortable lifestyle. I guess it’s time for my soul to upgrade and leave this sandcastle behind.

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Om.g. Leave it to Lisa Jo Baker’s 5 minute friday to stretch our creative  minds so briefly.

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Psst…. This really came to mind without much thought. so please be forgiving. while reading it.

BUILD ON YOUR POPULAR CONTENT.

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O.M.G. day 28 is here at Zero to Hero. It went by so fast with 2 days to go. So, without further ado, I will start today’s project: DAY 28: BUILD ON YOUR POPULAR CONTENT.

As I look through my past posts, I find that readers so far like posts about new things or what’s I found in around the web. Such as : Weekly Round Up. For the weekly round-up I gave the readers some of my favorite finds found around the web.The other is : What I Found , This  where I gave shout outs to   interesting , and up lifting  blogs

I enjoy, sharing fun, educational, D.I.Y, Photography editing apps and soon my favorite fashion blogs. So, there will be lots more of those to come!

Also, Please! Bare with me as I will add new subjects to blog. Like, my post called: State of the Union . Which was not as popular as the two post mentioned above. It also wasn’t  as popular as my two pages Live 1 Café and Word Trips , which are   usually  missed.

But, I doubt I’ll do politics again or critique our president, for the fact I do respect him. Further more, I don’t want a forum  for anyone else to disrespect him. However, if he cuts my dental and eye care, than we got a problem :))))))

Well, expect to have some fun and uplifting things to come. As well as my uncommon opinion and view on current events. As I’m a Christian, a Woman , and a Writer , that’s in  progress of living.

Blessings~ Leah x-o

State of the Union

The State of the Union Speech tonight was going to be my first real post on today’s events. But, half way through I felt it wasn’t the post I wanted.  Because I,  didn’t want to rant and perhaps,  I wanted to believe in the dream of what President Obama was telling us.

However, I have to give in to how I feel about a couple of things. Like, the Obama Heath Care . I feel, it’s  not the insurance for me.  But, unfortunately I wasn’t  given that Choice. As  I had received a letter from my insurance, that I wouldn’t be receiving its medical care anymore.

What? I thought calling my insurance company. Who, told me I couldn’t  keep them or my doctors , for the fact that my job choose the presidents care. So! who I’m really mad at?! Both, because if He (Obama) hadn’t demanded it , than my job wouldn’t have accepted his terms!

Also, let me be clear here as I’m sure that,  O care is good for someone. Especially, if they raise minimum wage to 10.00 dollars for all job descriptions . Because, they’ll need it to pay their new health care, me included.

Okay, enough of  that! To be honest I’m not against our president , he has done a lot of good things such as: Immigration, same sex marriage,  and now working on women earning, truly the same as men. Let’s not forget, getting our man and women out of this war.

Which brings me to a moving moment when, he honored: injured Army Ranger Sgt. 1st Class Cory Remsburg . As a big supporter of our U.S. Troops, I was  completely inspired by his endurance of getting better after his life threatening injuries. He gained them  from a road side bombing, while in Afghanistan. It was a blessing to see him  standing as he received a standing  ovation. That was worth watching the darn speech for me

However, I have to throw some shade as I wipe my eyes, of tears, I watched his comrade clapping from different locations. I thought how great would it had been, if he had stood with him. But, never the less it was a great moment.

I wish I could say more about the speech, however a lot of it needs to been seen . Otherwise, it sounds like a great diplomatic speech, for us who are living in the Haves and Haves Nots era. Which isn’t your Oprah’s version.

Blessings ~ Leah